Today I’m bubbling over with emotions. I recently went through surgery and have been busy trying to recover from it and have had many complications plague this process. I got a call from my adviser about my classes and she told me that one of professors is concerned about my schoolwork and the ability to continue with the pace of the class.
This is heartbreaking for me because I had to leave college the first time because my mom had breast cancer. I have prayed for years to have the opportunity and spirit again to go back to college and finish what I started. With this call, it brings back lots of memories of leaving school and leaving things unfinished with my degree. I am blessed to have the adviser that I do who called me and is trying to work with me on the best possible solution for this one class.
It is at times when there is a struggle in our lives that it is so easy to lose track of the big picture and have faith in what God is providing in one’s life. I have taken time this afternoon to pray and ask for God to lead me in the direction that I need to go. I pray this willingly because only my Heavenly Father can see the stress, pain, and anguish that my heart is feeling right now and only He can heal that and help me approach things in a positive and productive way.
I am reaching out to each of you today to remember that there are life-changing sacrifices that we make each and every day no matter how small or large. The important thing is to remember who needs to be in control of these decisions- our Heavenly Father. It is through His almighty grip in our lives that we are able to cope, see the bright side of things and find the determination and strength to keep going.
Blessings on your week-
This year has started off with a bang in my life. I found out that I have pre-cancerous cells growing and am need of surgery to ensure that they don’t turn cancerous. On Friday, I got a call from my doctor to let me know that my insurance company has denied my claim. They want me to undergo further biopsies and see if the cells have turned cancerous.
I have tried to be strong and courageous through this whole experience because I have many roles to uphold in my life. Some of the roles are wife, mom student, Christian, daughter, sister, and friend. After the call from the nurse though I crashed and burned. I could do nothing more than sob and pray silent within my head for God to make it stop and help me get in check. My kids were set to come home from school and I didn’t want them to find their mom this way.
That is when I thought about a secondary insurance policy we have. I asked about the possibility of using this for the surgery. The doctor’s office will be doing that this coming week. I am praying for this to be approved and for the strength and energy to write an appeal to the insurance company to see if I can’t get the surgery I need.
The best part of this whole scenario is two-fold. My kids did come home to find me in tears. My son who is 11 started to cry and hold onto me. My 17 year old daughter stood there and finally told her brother and I, “You both need to stop it! Stop it now! God is in control of it and He will take care of it! So, stop crying and have faith!” Since she was born I’ve said that God gave me her to show me the way and it was never truer than Friday.
On Sunday at church, our pastor gave a sermon about holding out for God’s time for His blessing. He knows what I’m facing and so the message seemed just fitting. He then gave an example of we as God’s people are like microwaves. We like to get things done quick and can with the technology that we have. But God is like a slow cooker. All things good or bad that come in our lives are in His time. That is where we struggle in life and can become depressed or complacent. I thought how perfect of an example for a gal that likes to cook who is in a battle for her health.
I so want to remind you all to not let any health concerns you may have go without attention. I went over a year before I went to the doctor in December. I want to encourage you that as you go through troubles and turmoil not to lose sight of your goals, dreams and God.
I’m sure this is a common thought for most people during the workweek, but I happen to be extra excited because I’m planning on hitting the mall! And while I do happen to love shopping, I’m more interested this weekend in the St. John’s Hospital “Heart to Heart Fair,” which is being held at West County mall. West County is a great venue for the event, and there are will be all sorts of things to satisfy a health nut like me, including fitness demos, healthy cooking demos, and free heart-health screenings. This may sound strange, but I’m particularly interested in having my cholesterol read. I guess that’s not something most 19-year-olds really care about, but like I said – I’m a health nut! I’ve never had it done before, and I jumped at the opportunity. Hopefully I get good results!
Anyway, the event is Friday, Feb. 25, from 8 a.m. to 1 p.m. and Saturday, Feb. 26, from 10 a.m. to 3 p.m. If you’re interested in getting some information about healthful living, it should be a great resource! And hey, you can enjoy a little shopping as well. Maybe I’ll see you there!