Time really flies fast! It’s already been a year for me in St. Louis, studying in Fontbonne University. Back to the day from last year, I was in California and struggling with what I should do after graduation. It was a really scary thing to me when I thought that it seemed like I’d already achieved my academic plans and didn’t have any goals in front of me to achieve anymore… Until I got an email that night saying that I got accepted onto a master’s program combined with a dietetic internship — my mind and emotions totally changed. I could finally achieve what I was longing for for years!!!!!! Even though within this year, I still have encountered struggles since I moved to a new place independently while my family members are all living very far away from me. I always remember that this is an opportunity that I can use to get my master’s and internship. I treasure it and I believe that God can help me bear it through all the way to the end even though I think I can’t. That makes me want to continue to work my best, and he will help me with the rest.
I know this semester is almost over. And some of you may had encountered bumps in this semester. However, I really want to encourage you to not give up your dreams! Bumps will eventually be gone. But your dream will never move away from you. If you keep working hard, your path to reach the goal will shorten and eventually when you reach your destination, this will forever be for you!!! So, let’s Dream Big together!!
Last year, as a freshman I would hear professors tell me that it is common for people to switch majors in life at least once. I had not really believed my professors, in addition to my family members until that happened to me. When I started my college career I thought for sure that I had found the best major and knew that I could help people grow individually in a passionate way. I wanted to become a Speech-Language Pathologist since I had personally gone through language therapy as a child. I could give back my time personally to the greater community and allow other children know that they are not alone when having difficulties. Though slowly throughout the semester I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach that something was off, or uncertain about my life. During classes, especially one of my speech-language pathology classes, I would have those same thoughts, multiple times a day for multiple classes. I knew something was off in my gut but I had no idea what was coming and when I would find out what this was.
Once the summer almost hit, I had a language evaluation conducted right on campus since we have resources available. I received the results and of course I was diagnosed with a language disorder that could not be treated just through therapy. Honestly it is complicated to explain as to why I cannot really receive therapy for growth but it is alright not completely understanding. So upon hearing this news and really talking to one of my favorite professors, I felt devastated, one of my dream job opportunities was being taken away from me it felt like and all I wanted to do was blame myself and blame the way I was born, since this is something I have had since I was a baby basically. I felt alone that entire summer, even though I was the light of the party whenever with friends and having a blast. I felt alone in regards to the fact that I did not know what I was going to do with the rest of my college career. What would I major in? What kind of career can I pursue to hopefully one day maybe raise a family? So many questions and yet no where near able to find answers. I am thankful for my sister to have helped me think through possibilities of what to major in reflecting upon my own interests – helping people. Though through much time and patience, I really was able to find another major of interest that I completely and ultimately feel so comfortable in and actually enjoy my classes. I have a sort of peace within myself now when I sit in classes and sit with confidence — no more doubt. I really understand now what my friends and family meant by how the switching of majors really does happen to everyone – and it is still okay. We are not alone.
I learned a lot this semester. I learned a lot in my contemporary moral issues class. Although the ideas are pretty basic, I like how there are different categories for things. For example, you cannot hurt a tree, you damage it. Humans are ends in themselves… that sort of thing.
I have also come closer to discovering what I want to do with my degree in business. I would really like to go into sales. From the beginning, I always liked selling things. My whole neighborhood knows me for selling girl scout cookies. I was always very dedicated to it. Once I graduate, I’m thinking of going into pharmaceutical, medical, or technology sales.
This summer is a period that I have been looking forward to for so long since I came to the United States, because this summer I will be truly having my dietetic internship and gaining experience in different areas of the dietetics field, including clinical, food service, and community nutrition. I’m very very excited because this is my dream career to become a Registered Dietitian, but at the same time, I’m kinda scared of stepping into the real world for “Real” practice! But I believe that every new challenge needs a buffering zone to get through it, and I’m sure my heavenly father will accompany me all the way through my hardships as well as the exciting moments that I will have. Right now, I just want to prepare myself well, study hard, and continue to fight for my life-long goal!! Cheers everyone!