My major, back when I was a little freshman, was to become a English teacher. My best friend and mentor Jeffery Facchin inspired me to do this. I was enjoying the knowledge that came with this major. I had a education class my senior year that changed my out look. I was starting to become stressed out with the changing field of education. I thought long and hard about if I wanted to do this. The question I asked myself was could I see myself ever happy at the end of the day. I couldn’t see myself happy, so I thought what I could do with a degree in English. I like writing poems and it makes me happy. So I decided that I can be an editor or writer for a newspaper or blog. I dropped the education part and became a lot less stressed out.
Life is tough for people, like me, who are left handed. Growing up, all the desks I sat in were right handed. I did get lucky and had a left handed desk every now and then. When I started community college, my mind was set on tables not desks being used. Guess what I saw….desks. I have flipped my notebooks so the spiral would atleast not bother me as much. But I was annoyed because the desks were connected to the chairs. Fontbonne has tables for students to sit at. It is so much better than being uncomfortable. This just crossed my mind last night when I was falling asleep.
Pray your way and be worry free. Things rarely make sense if you force them. Just be yourself, do whatever makes you happy and don’t waste your time trying to fix things out of your control. – Jeffery Facchin
I know… we all can change. – Rick Grimes (The Walking Dead)
A wise man told me this recently when I told him that I felt lost. So I took his words of wisdom into my life. I started to focus on what makes me happy, which one of the things was writing poetry. I had thought about changing what I wanted to do with my life. I changed my major to General Studies English. I felt the weight and worry lifted off of my shoulders. The stress that was holding me back just disappeared. I can have more open to my career than what I had previously.
I was not going to worry about trying my hardest to make everyone happy, but I was going to make myself happy again. That meant that I was taking more appreciation into the friendships that I currently have right now, and everything that I have in my life. I wasn’t going to try to force broken friendships to be fixed. If it was meant to be fixed than the broken friendships would be fixed.
Doing things like reading graphic novels, playing video games, and writing have changed my outlook on life. I had recently asked my folks if I could adopt a dog as a graduation gift in December. They said as long as I pay for everything for the dog. This had made my whole year. I felt more grown up because of this. I am looking forward to my dog. I will have something to look forward to when I came home from work. I have changed for the better. I take more pride in what I do.
I am going to different this week and post a sonnet I wrote. I hope you all enjoy it.
The Pancake Sonnet
Pancakes are so delicious
From blue berry to chocolate
Each can be very nutritious
Unless you haven’t ate
When I think this it makes me hungry
All I want to do is eat but I have no food
Which can make me angry
That is the current mood
Pancakes can be cooked in many ways
Blue berries, chocolate chips, buttery
The best time to eat them is at the end of the days
They can be made artistically
Pancakes are very golden
Better when hot not while colden