I am mentally stuck between my own personal goals and my family’s goals. To be more specific, I meant I don’t know how to solve my problem between going to school and planning to become an art teacher or taking over my mom’s nail salon.
For the past five years, I’ve been helping my mom at the nail salon. I’m usually there on weekends, then I work almost the whole summer everyday. No, I don’t get paid because the money goes towards our bills and such. And mom pays for everything for me, so I’m not complaining. I do save a little bit from tips (during the good season). However, I am complaining about how much I have to work and not being able to put time into school. It’s not that bad, but when I need the weekends to do homework, I’m stuck at work. Sure, I do bring homework to the place but when it’s busy, I can’t get to it. Then I get too tired to do it when I get home. I guess I need to work on organizing my schedule to fit both work and homework time. Also, with my commitments to my student organizations, I usually don’t get to attend or help out because of work or something. I know my family is my obligation/priority. I want to do so much during college because I want to become a great and successful leader. At least in some aspects. I really want to study abroad one day. Money is the other issue, though. It’s so cruel! Just another complaint.
It’s just so hard right now. I’m also wondering how long should I continue to work at the salon? Will it be steady for the next five years? I’ve told myself that I will continue helping her for as long as needed. I just feel like I’m slowly being forced into something bigger that I don’t want to do. *SIGH*
Hope everyone’s doing well! Have a great weekend.